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9 - Pretty Boy

Tonight, during dinner, I started crying at the table. The boys were teasing me over the Kimbo incident and I broke down. Afterwards, Heath apologized for making fun of me all weekend. He said that he didn't realize that I was the upset about it. He didn't know that I was pushed into the pool, and had believed Sarah when she said it was an accident. It felt really amazing to have someone (especially Heath) be on my side for once.

It's almost 10PM and I haven't even started any of my homework yet. I've been too busy writing. I've been working on Miss Popular from yesterday as well as a song about Heath. It's pretty simple. It's just me confessing my undying love for him and wishing he felt the same. After our talk tonight, it's not such a dream. Maybe he really does like me.

Things with Sarah are still gross. She still hates me and won't acknowledge that I exist (except to tell me that I looked like a pirate hooker today. I don't know if I can handle living with her for much longer.

8 - Miss Popular

So it turns out the party that Nicole dragged me to was at Kimberly's house. It was pretty awful. Sarah came up to us immediately and dragged Nicole away. She yelled at her for bringing me. They got into an argument over it, while I hung out in the bathroom. I was so embarrassed. Eventually Nicole convinced me to come out. We danced for a bit, but it felt like everyone was staring at me all night, and not in the normal "is that her?" way.

At about 10:30 it seemed like Kimberly was actually going to make an effort to be nice to me. She came over with Melissa and they started talking about our Point class. And then Kimmy "accidentally" hip checked me and I ended up in the pool. It was humiliating. She told me I couldn't go inside the house because I was wet, so I just left. I didn't say goodbye to anyone. I don't think Nic even knew what had happened.

As soon as I left, I realized I made a huge mistake, because I had no idea where I was and I was soaking wet. I started wandering the streets and crying uncontrollably. After half an hour, I finally found a payphone, but there was no one at home to answer it. I thought I had figured out where I was so I tried to walk home again, but I just ended up getting more and more lost. I could have gotten a taxi, but I couldn't remember the house address, and didn't have enough cash to go driving through the streets. I tried calling home 3 more times and finally on the fourth try, Aidan answered. He came to get me straight away.

By the time Aidan found me, I was pretty sure that all of my tears had been used and I wouldn't be able to cry anymore. But then, I had to explain why I was wearing wet clothes in the middle of the night. The flood came back and once again I couldn't stop it. I think I may have freaked him out a bit.

When Sarah finally came home, she got in a huge fight with Aidan about the incident. She was upset that I embarrassed her, and Aidan figured it was Sarah's fault in the first place. Heath and Aaron think it's ridiculously funny and burst into giggles every time I walk by. It's so devastating to know that Heath knows and thinks it's funny. Needless to say I've been avoiding them all. I've spent most of the day in the garden writing a song about lovely Kimberly's future. I've called it Miss Popular.

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